1st Session of Marriage Preparatory Course.

First one. Have 9 sessions more to go!

It's not that bad, but it's not that good either. The ceramah about knowing oneself is average. I can't say it's so good as the interaction was more of the one-way thingy. So, you can't blame me or hubby when we doze off for a minute or two (happened quite a few times). But, what irritates me was the audience. Really.

Anda diharapkan berpakaian tertib.

Just which part of that don't they understand? To me, kalau nak bertatu, conperm takleh keluarkan lah kan. Tapi kalau bertindik di hidung (serupa lembu), kening... takleh bukak ke? Kalau dah biasa berpakaian ketat2, takleh ke tukar dan pakai sumting wic is more sopan? Tak semestinya sopan itu bermaksud kepada baju yang loose nak MAM*** per. Dasar orang kita dah tak tahu hormat agaknya. Aku hipokrit?? Biarpun aku hipokrit, aku tahu bagaimana nak sesuaikan diri dengan suasana majlis. Nak perangai biar bertempat ar, people!

An Ustaz asked a girl to comment about his analogy of a cup with only a small amount of tea left in it, and guess what's her reply??

Girl: Tak tau (dengan nada mengada-ngada).

Ustaz: Cuba, cuba beritahu apa saja yang awak pikirkan.

Girl: Tak tauuuuu...

Berdesing telinga aku mendengar jawapannya. Drpd itu aku dapat tangkap ar serba sedikit tentang peribadinya. Macam gitu nak buat bini?? Tak takot ke cik abang oi ?? Manelah tau kot2 dia perangai mcm tu dengan mak kau?? Oh ya, I almost forgot. Mama used to say, no matter how different you are from your partner, mesti ade perangai yang serupa. What you give, you get back. Karma. So, I guess cik abang dia pon is no different from her lah kan...

Alhamdulillah. Syukur Tuhan menemukan aku dengan Wan. I'm so thankful for that.

For the ceramah thingy, it's a wonder how I can get some stuff on my mind about some of the things. Ustaz was saying about he bersyukur ada di antara kita yang memakai tudung. He said the reason we probably don the gear was becoz we know how precious our body are, we know that it's meant only for the husband. True. That was partially the reason why I don it & mostly the reason was, it's tuntutan agama. Hipokrit eh aku ni. Well, tell me who isn't? And the Ustaz also commented about pompan2 sekarang yang berpakaian macam TARZAN!! Wakakakakaka! Keras siak bobal.

Beli barang, seperti baju, yang mahal, berjenama. Barang itu dibalut dan dijaga dengan rapi. Beli barang kemas, disimpan, diletak di dalam almari. Tetapi perempuan, beli baju yang mahal, yang terdedah macam tidak cukup kain, tunjukkan dan berkemungkinan menaikkan nafsu orang lain yang memandang. Dia berpakaian sebegitu while going out with her loved one. Ain't the wonders of a girl to be seen by the hubby only? So why show it all to the rest of the buayas?? Kenapa dirinya, maruahnya, yang sangat berharga itu tidak disimpan sebegitu rapi seperti yang diperlakukan kepada barang kemas??

Kenapa pompan?

Itulah secebis coretan hatiku setelah mendengar ceramah tadi.

Haiz... Till here. Entry too long now...

I was won at TIMEZONE.

Hehehe... Winnie the Pooh. I loike!! My Boo won it for me. I *heart* euu, dear. And look, Pooh's butt also has a face. The other lion stuff toy's from MacDonald's Happy Meal. (I tink so. Or was it Extra Value Meal?? No idea.)

Misshing B orady...

Anyway, Rizal, if you are reading this, I'm so sorry I couldn't ikot Kak Fard & all. I had a staff meeting and only reached home at 7pm. My deepest condolences to you. I can't possibly say "I know how you feel" as I've not experienced it. All I can say is, life has to go on. Semua yang terjadi ada hikmahnya. Take care, my friend.

Jealous.

It's been a long time since I've chit-chatted on the phone with my cuzz... Dah tengah syok2 bobal, my mommy pulak yang sibuk mintak hantar pegi kerja. Bila dah sampai at her workplace, she exclaimed!! Forgot to bring her purse.

So, there I go. Patah balik rumah to get it. My bro was waiting for me with her purse, and then he followed me too. Hahaha! He was so funny. When we reach my mommy's workplace, my bro cakap, "Brr... sejuk. Mama tak abis2 cakap time kaseh, time kaseh. Mimin kat belakang ni dah macam nak beku."

I forgot that dia tak biasa naik motor malam2. I'm used to the cool air.

Reached home. Continued the conversation with Huda. What to do. My hubby was busy working. Tapi nampak2 nye, hubby tak senang kalau I'm on the phone at night while he's at work. Tak abis2 msg Ayu...

Don't worry, B. You are the only one I have in my heart. You'll be the only son-in-law kesayangan Mama & Abah. Jealous tau Ayu. Hmph!!

Boredom.

Boredom. Look at the picture below and you know that too much self-picture-taking can give you, not pleasure, but simply boredom.

While I'm doing this, B is sleeping soundly behind me. Yes. SOUNDLY. Sometimes the sound can get as loud as you can imagine. Wakakakaka! Sorry B but I can't help myself from typing that.

He's so tired after his night shift. So, must get some sleep before we catch Garfield 2, the movie. Or else... You dunno how easily he can doze off in a movie. Not even if it's a comedy or horror.

Omi! I still have not decide on my wedding lunch's concept. Feel like doing a resort style, or Javanese's, or the traditional / singgahsana style, or the garden style, or the MALAS style, or the ballroom style. When I typed in 'pelamin Anggun Andaman', I got this at the search result. If I'm not wrong, I got the pictures belom from sumting2 that sounds like syazah.multiply, or sumting2 like that.


Bad memory. Getting old. Must say thanks to her (Syazah) tho. So, ballroom style has already been done.

Think I'm going with the chic style, then. So, so modern. I don't care what others might say.

It's my wedding. It's my big day. It's mine!! Mine, mine, mine. Gosh, I'm sounding like a baby!

I'm so in love with the pelamins' at Anggun Andaman. Well, since I've already engaged Fatimah Mohsin the Wedding Gallery, I just have to tell them my concept. Hehehe... nasib baik Kak Fatimah & Kak Nana (& all the other staffs) are the friendly type. They say I can even give them pics, or show them the sample pics from other bridal shops. They don't mind at all.

All those peeps yang bad-mouthed their service, I can only prove you wrong after Dec 5th, coz that's the day of my post-wed shots. I'm confident. Thanks to my aunt, Wak Ilah, I got to go to Sultanah & Fatimah Mohsin... She also recommended Zul Radi.

I know. I know. You're gonna ask why I didn't engage Zul Radi. Simply because my cuzz, Kak Ogy, who's getting hitch this August is also using his service, & a lot of my friends hired them already.

Besides, I love the simple, not cakey, natural & sweet make-up that Kak Fatimah gives. After Kak Ogy, then it'll be my turn. Wondering if Abg Yus has confirmed the date for his engagement day. His gf wanted sumting simple. Tukar cincin aje. Hmm... if they are, then my Tok will be getting 2 more cucu menantu (is that wat it's called??) & 1 more soon-to-be cucu menantu by the end of 2006... Whoa! That's a lot.

Cerita Jenaka

Pada suatu hari, Mak Andeh sedang buat kerja freelancenye, iaitu cabut uban emaknya. Mak Andeh dan emaknya pun mula bercerita. Emaknya tiba-tiba timbulkan soal menimang cucu. Elak punya elak, Mak Andeh tak dapat mengelak lagi. Macam mane nak elak, ilmu itu pakcik belum ajar...

"Kalau kau takde anak, dah tua nanti, sape nak jage kau, Andeh?" tanya emak Mak Andeh. Mak Andeh pun jawab adik-adiknya yang diharapkan untuk menjaganya. Mak Andeh ni pun satu. Dia kalau tak menjawab, macam tak sah gitu. Perangai. Perangai.

"Kalau dorang jage kau, sape lak nak jage aku? Takkan nak beranak lagi. Mesen aku dah stop ni, Andeh," dengan pandai emaknya berikan jawapan. Mak Andeh terfikir sejenak.

"Alah Mak, Andeh ni bukan ape. Andeh takutlah nak ade anak. Entah terjaga ke tidak. Kalau Andeh macam Mak, takpelah jugak," kata Mak Andeh.

"Ha, macam aku? Kau tu lagi terok daripada aku. Kau tak ingat macam mane kau jage adek2 kau tu? Kalau suara aku sampai bawah blok boleh dengar biler aku marah, suara kau tu, daripada bawah sampai atas bumbung blok ni, pendek kata, satu blok lah, boleh dengar suara kau. Kau tak ingat ke biler kite tinggal pat kampong Seranggoon North dulu, kau dengan adek2 kau, tak ubah macam Mak Tiri dengan anak2 biri. Eh salah, anak2 tiri. Tersasol pulak aku ni," kata emaknya dengan berjela-jela... Non-stop machine gun.

"Alah, tu dulu lah Mak. Ni sekarang, Andeh dah lain. Kalau dapat anak pompan, lagi Andeh takot. Sebab Mak ngan Pak lah, Andeh jadi gini. Mak ngan Pak garang, tapi oklah, ade relek jugak sikit. Macam pepatah, 'U're my fren'. Kalau Andeh tak dapat jadi macam Mak ngan Pak, macam mane? Huru-hara kalau anak Andeh nanti jadi macam anak Metro, Setan. Eh, anak Metropolitan. Sorilah Mak. Terkasar bahasa pulak," si Mak Andeh menerangkan.

"Tau takot. Tau takpe, Andeh. Kau ingat senang jage anak. Tapi, aku kire kau oklah. Kau, Andeh, bukan ke kau ni garang..." jelas si emaknya.

" Andeh memanglah strict, Mak. Semua mesti in order. Perfectionist. Tapi, kalau Andeh je yang garang, pon tak guna Mak. Mak tengok lah Abang Pandir tu. Takot nanti dia lembot pulak ngan anak2. Hati dia tu boleh tahan lembot jugak Mak. Karang nanti biler Andeh marah2, dia lak yang bela anak2," keluh si Mak Andeh.

"Rubbish only kau ni Andeh. Nak kasi reason pon tak kuat. Aku tau, kau tu cume penakot je nak tahan sakit biler mengandung, kan?! Pasal si Pandir tu, kau jangan bimbanglah. Kire settle je masalah tu. Kau tengok je nanti, dia mesti tukar punye. Orang dah kahwin lain, Andeh... hehehe... Teringat pulak aku. Kau nak tau, kau tu garang macam Mak Andeh, dalam cerita jenaka dulu2. Tunang kau pulak, macam si Pak Pandir. Sajak betul!" kata emaknya lalu ketawa.

"Hish, tak baiklah Mak ni..." Mak Andeh terpaksa tahan geli hatinya, sebab nak bela tunang punye pasal.

"Aku cakap kau je garang macam Mak Andeh.... Aku tak nak bakal menantu aku tersayang jadik macam Pak Pandir. Kau tu, boleh tahan gak buli dia je tau," kata emaknya, ingin membela diri dan bakal menantunya juga.

Inilah dia 2 figure cerita jenaka dahulu:

Seri Rahayu sbg Mak Andeh

Md Redzuan sbg Pak Pandir

Cerita ini adalah rekaan semata-mata. Rekaan oleh My Mama, Puan Rahmah.

You won. I lost. Bah!

:: with helmets on ::

Oooh.. I just love him. He made time for me before he had to go to work. It's his night shift. Ain't he sweet? He sacrificed his sleep for me. Wonder what else he'll do for me? Hmm....

We rode to Lot 1 just to play pool.

:: full of concentration ::

2-1. I was on the winning side but when I saw him getting upset after he sucked at his free ball during the 4th game, I told him let's call it a day lah. But he insisted we continue playing. That's when he started winning.

Game after game. In the end, it was 3-2. I purposely played lousy just to keep him happy. Hehehe...

Ok, ok, ego aside please Ayu. It wasn't deliberately done. I tried as hard.

He won. Yup, I lost. Bah!

To cheer me up, he bought me a head-band, & a Pashmina scarf. It doesn't cost much but gestures like that meant a lot to me. Thanks, sayang. I love you to bits!

If Only...

:: the car ::

I saw the ad on the Peugeot car for too many times, till I can almost recite the words tho it may not be the words... Wakaka! I'm becoming illogical. Not even sure what to say.

Suffice to say I simply find it amusing & a bit not logical. But I guess that's what ads are for. To amuse.

If only...

1. guys were tailor-made, you might as well get Ken (Barbie's boyfriend) from Toys 'R' Us.
2. heels were not as painful (is that it??), then u might as well wear your sportshoes! Who's crazy enuff to wear that for sports anyway?? If there were, it wouldn't be called heels!!
3. men can give birth, then they wouldn't be considered the male gender, coz only the females are given the gift to do that! The closest there's to it is to look after it before they hatch or whatsoever... like the fishes, etc. & the closest for the human male is to take proper care of the human female... Their wife lah, needless to say. But nowadays, I guess the human female can also refer to their mistress/mistresses, girlfrens, or even fren. Hmph!
4. diamonds grow on trees, then a womans' best friend would be the apples, or any kinda fruits. Why? Coz all the diamonds, & rubys, & sapphires, & etc, will take up to be the fruits on the trees, & by then, the fruit would be so rare that it will fast sold out. Get what I mean? You don't?! Knock yourself out then. Suffice to say, fruits get you richer (for health), while all the rocks only get you poorer (but when will the ladies realise that?!)...
5. there's a car like that for everyone, then I must get my class 3 license NOW! But wait, are they giving it for free?? No? Forget about the license then...

Now, do you see my point? My response to this ad that I saw on TV was,

If only all the ads are for real...!

Finally...

Haiz... It's finally done now. I practically took up the whole day just to create a new layout for this blog.

Hence, I have to say thanks to this lot of people....

1. Kak Mary - I found the blogs of Rai, Ain, etc...
2. Kak Fard - at her site, I got the site for picture trail...
3. Ain - I found the site for the clock...
4. & to the rest of ya from whom I got the blog @ of the others...

That's all for now. It's 8++pm already, & I have yet to wash up. Hmm, wonder if Hubby has standby tonight? If he doesn't, I reali reali reali reali reali, reali wanna meet him (how many times have I repeated reali??).

I truly miss you, sayang...

Thank God we're OK now...

I'm missing you so much dearie.

You dunno how hard it's been on me. Now, amek kau! Dgr aku meraung, merengek, tak ubah mcm budak kecik menangis tersedu-sedan semalam. B, dun tell me you ingatkan there's no the softer side of me?! I ni pompan per, of course lah. Like duh! & when I say sumting, I reali mean it. Dun tink that I'm just twisting with my words. If I say time-out, it simply means just that.

The ups & downs with you, I thrust it down in my heart. Make sure there's no repetition of all the downs.

But you know what B, when you messaged me yesterday, that you've been having heartaches, it really contradicts yourself. Why? Because while you messaged me that, you were happily out with your friend, playing pool, & eating LAMB CHOP at Jurong Point. So much for heartaches ey?? I yang tengah sedih pilu macam nak giler, aderlah tak makan sangat. Kalau makan pun, setakat Koko Crunch with choc milk je tau! Bluek!

Alhamdulillah, we're over that fight already. If it still persists, I tink I might be losing lots of kilos, you know... :>

Arrogant. Me??!

"Honey, sum1 said u ni sombong. Tadi, u tak salam pompan2 pat sebelah & dpn u eh?"

Ya ampun, aku sombong?? That's new. But anyway, aku lebih suka dikatakan sombong daripada too friendly. B, in fact, I think u shud be bersyukur tat I'm not friendly, u know. Apa u tak worried ke if I were like tat??

I'm not upset tat pple are calling me sombong ke, bitch ke, ugly nak mam*** ke, jambu giler mcm nk pengsan ke, or watsoever. I'm simply upset tat u didn't defend me.

Peeps, if you haf got lotsa time in ur hand, do commend abt my situation ya.

Senario:

1. Nak pergi jemputan @Serangoon. (near my alma mater, Peicai Sec)
2. Naik my darling Pinky Vespa.
3. Tiba-tiba, hujan @x'way.
4. Sampai tpt majlis, basah kuyup (lower half of da body).
5. Masih hujan, aku kesejukan.
6. Met his colleagues whom he didn't introduced.
7. He asked me to sit next to this girl (found out hu tat person was later).
8. She's also his colleague tapi aku tak kenal.
9. They salam2 before heading off (I didn't salam both girls, tho. Aku tak kenal. Wat do u expect? Salam, peluk, cium??).
10. bla...bla... bla... He went off to work.
11. Break-time for him. He told me the above statement.

I was upset coz he only gave his friend the reason that "Hujan kan. Sejuk, bab tu dia tk layan." Truly upset. Why can't he just admit it's his fault that he didn't introduce me to them? Fine, they know me. But, do I know them?? Argh, it's just so frustating!! & I became hysterical!

Then, he said "Why are so upset? U pon ckp I sombong per bile we meet your friend?" Like duh! Of course lah. U know them, they know u. I introduced you some more. Omigod! He said it's up to me then, ikut suka hati akulah if I wanna continue being upset over nothing.

Wow. Now I know that not defending his own fiancee is nothing. So fine. Time out for now. Yes. I wanted it. Before aku meletup lagik dgn dia, lebih baik time out dulu. Have not contacted each other for a day now. Dunno how long this will last. He'll always msg me the day after we fight, but not anymore now.

Haiz... to make matters worse, I had a dream about us last night after we fight. The dream was, lepas akad nikah, we slept and then I was so surprised to wake up next to him. Then, I said to myself "Eh, bile mase lak aku kawin ni??" Funny coz rite after I said that, I woke up. Look at my hp to see if there's any 'good morning dear' messages, or a miss call maybe. But, no. Looks like he doesn't care. He really don't care anymore. Shit!

Banyak betul dugaan yang perlu aku tempuhi...

Life is like a box of chocs...

:: chocs, i loike ::

Welcome to my life!

Life has its ups & downs. Sometimes, everything goes as smooth-sailing. There are also times when your life truly sucks. Turmoil!

It's been almost 21 years now & I've had my fair share of the life ordeal. Family ties, close-knitted. Relationships, finally engaged after 2 long-termed ones failed. I'm happy though as the past experience is like a life-long lesson, not teachable anywhere.

Finally graduated from the NIE. I'm now a full-time Malay Language teacher at Wellington Primary School. The colleagues there are nice. Suffice to say, I like the whole environment although it seemed strange at first becoz I was so used to the environment at my practicum school which was Admiralty Primary.

New life. New beginning. I'm gonna make the best of it all. Thank God my life is turning around for the better. I'm now a fiancee, awaiting 172 more days before I become a wife. It's so much better now.