Touched by my boy.

I can't help it. Sobbed a little. I was so touched. My boy. No child has really touched me this way.

Ridhwan: Cikgu, Shadiqin tulis "I love you" di penanda buku yang kita sedang buat ini.
Cikgu Seri: Betul, Shadiqin?
Shadiqin: A ar, cikgu.
Cikgu Seri: Amboi... kecil-kecil dah pandai eh. Awak cintakan siapa ni?
Shadiqin: Saya love ibu saya. Saya rindukan dia.
Cikgu Seri: Awak rindukan dia?
Shadiqin: Ya, cikgu.
Cikgu Seri: Ok, tulislah di situ "I love you, ibu".

Tried my very best to fight those tears. Even as an adult, it's rare that I say stuffs like "I miss mommy". Gosh, it's been years I said that to mommy. Let's see, the last time I said that was when I went away to KL with Hub, bro & M-I-L.

Anyway, I didn't mind that my boy wrote such stuffs on the bookmarks that they were making as it was meant as a gift for Children's Day (celebrated it today @our school as we invited Towner Gardens School - my sis was a pupil there - to join in the celebration). The bookmark was also a medium in my teaching. As long as there's a sentence using kata depan on one side, and a drawing on the other side, I'm fine with it. I check the sentences first before allowing them to draw and fitting in the ribbon.

I love my children. Even though they are not mine, I treat them as a part of my life. Whatever, or whenever they are hurt, I feel the pinch too. Suffice to say that whatever affects them, affects me.

In fact, B sometimes worries about me, who's forever putting my pupils ahead of my health. I was unwell a couple of times but went ahead to work for my childrens' sake. There's only one occasion that I had to take MC as the head and body ache was terrible. Luckily, Hub knows just how much I love my kids and whenever I need his help such as drawing for my big book (I'm a goner for drawing) or choosing necessary stuffs for them, he'll lend a hand. It doesn't matter that he's extremely tired after work. He's supportive of my work. That makes me love him more.

Oh ya, back to my boy that I was talking about earlier. He's moved to Pasir Ris. When asked, he now wakes up at 5am and then his Granny will send him & his siblings to school by bus. He's transferring to a school in Paris Ris next year.

Shadiqin, I'm gonna miss you next year...

Spend the rest of my lifetime with you.

Kekata itu yang engkau lafazkan setahun yang lalu.

Sejam lagi, aku dan Wan akan menyambut ulang tahun pertunangan kami yang pertama. Rasanya seakan-akan sudah lama aku berada di sampingnya. Airmataku menitis kerana rasa bersyukur di atas kebesaranNya menemukan aku dan dia.

Thank God I found you...

Lagu tersebut khas buatmu, sayang. Biarpun jangka masa perkenalan kita agak singkat, we know that we are meant for each other.

Aku percaya bahawa Tuhan akan menemukan kita dengan the wrong people first before letting us meet with the RIGHT one. Well, we've had our fair share before this. Feelings hurt, trust betrayed. That's part and parcel of life.

Allah maha adil, maha mengetahui, maha besar.

DIA mengetahui cara yang terbaik untuk mengajar kita erti kehidupan. Dengan itu, terima kasih ya Allah.

Our conversation (not for the cold-hearted),

"U noe sumting?"
"Wat"
"I'm crying cos I miss you so much."
"Macam mana ni kalau I da takde?"
"I akan tatap gambar kita bersama, dengan diiringi doa buat abg."
"Hahaha."
"I tgh nangis, u ketawa pulak! Benci ar."
"I love you."

Dedicated to the VQs.

Girls... I MISS YOU!! Remember those times when we'd conducted study groups, sleep on benches while killing time before the next lecture starts, those eat-cheesecake-cookies-sandwich-and-drink-ice choc over at the cafe during break time, sh*t together at the toilet that has the baldi....

I truly miss those times... To current NIE students, I recommend the toilet at the Admin block. There's spray in the cubicle, you know!

Miss Ain, Miss Shikin & Miss Aishah... I miss you, girlfriends!

Live up to the name Vintage Queens, ya.

To you peeps wondering what VQs means to us... it's simply the Makcik-Makcik Orbit.

Cerita Jenaka II

Finally got myself together to go for a jog last night. Of course I had to wait for Hub to return...

Trut-trut... trut-trut...

Mak Andeh: Pak Andeh pat mane ni? Maseh kat keje lagi ke?
Pak Pandir: Taklah.. saye dah jalan kluar nak pegi stesen bas ni.
Mak Andeh: Haiz, lambatnye. Jadi tak pegi lari-lari anak malam ni?
Pak Pandir: Entah. Suka hati awak ler..
Mak Andeh: Kalau dah cakap entah tu, maksudnye tak nak lah tu.
Pak Pandir: Mane ade... Suka ati lah. Nak pegi, awak tunggu bawah blok ajelah. Dah sampai, mesej.
Mak Andeh: Amboi bapaknye... Aku lelaki ke ko lelaki ni?? Ade ke patut awak suruh perigi mencari timba? Nak pakai mesej-mesej pulak tu. Canggih lah tu...
Pak Pandir: Hahaha... Maknye nak ke tak nak? Nak, cepat siap. Awak tu nak siap gi kedai pon lambat, ape lagi kalau pegi jogging. Dah. Pakai shorts je nanti. Baru laju sikit larinye tu.
Mak Andeh: Ha, pandai lah tu sindir orang. Bluek! Suro apek bas tu bawak laju sikit. Kalau pelan sangat, bapaknye turun, tolak bas. Konon warm-up lah tu...

Inilah kisahnya sebelum saya dan tunang pergi berlari-lari anak semalam. Kecoh betol. Akibat daripada jogging semalam, saya dah berjaya shed 1/2 kg... Wow! Gonna go for a run again tonight. With Hub, the most boring thing will turn out to be interesting...

Pretty. Me??

Joke of the year. Other than my Hub, I didn't expect anyone else to say that I'm beautiful. But it turns out that particular assumption of mine wasn't true.

On Abg Yus's & Lenny's engagement day,

Me: "Erm, abang leh tolong amikkan gambar?"
The aunt: "Ni amik gambar anak-beranak?"
Mommy: "A ar."
The aunt: "Ah, yang ni bolehlah."
The guy: "Amik gambar sekali lagi boleh?"

This was how I look that day (during the event).

This was how I look after being the busy photographer.

A few days later, after the photos (taken by the professional photographer - Me) were developed,

Anonymous 1: "Eh lawa budak ni."
Anonymous 2: "A ar."
Lenny: "Eh, takleh. Ni orang dah book. December ni nak kahwin."
Anonymous 1/2: "Ha! Alamak. Terlambatlah ni."

When mommy got to know this story from my Mak Teh dearest (my closest aunt),

Mommy: "Anak aku semua lawa-lawa. Pakkal anak aku satu tu special. Kalau tak, dia pon dah ade matair."
Me: "Yelah part macam ni anak aku semua cantik. Tapi, bile depan orang lain, bikin malu je. Anak aku takleh pakai baju macam ni. Dia gemok!"

The way Mommy & I held our conversation may seem kurang ajar to others. But, really that's not what my own family members think. Sometimes, my parents will even talk dirty in front of us. Of course, my bro is clueless! Wakakaka... We talk about anything under the sun, sand & the sea - openly, freely & yes, we are loud. That makes us closer. There're always pros & cons to everything. Even Hubby is learning to adapt to our lifestyle. He's turned to be loud with my family (immediate family members not extended) now. The negative point of it all, sometimes we forgot to think before we speak till we hurt the feelings of our loved ones...

In all, it doesn't matter how pretty I may look to others. What matters most, I'm still the prettiest lady that can make my man go crazy. Wakakaka....

F.A.T.

F - for good wedding shots,
A - Ayu has...
T - to lose weight!

Haiz. Have lost a bit of weight now. From 62 kg (before school holidays) to 59 kg now. Happy with the results so far. Skipping does wonders... Really. Wanna achieve my 55 kg (50 kg wud be better) target. Not only that. I wanna maintain that weight for eternity.

A few more kilos & I can wear the 'baju' that mommy said I wud not look gud in just becoz I have a tummy, she says. Who doesn't?? But till then, I have to tolerate her shaming me in front of other family members. Haiz...

I look like... who??

Oooh... been a while now since my last entry. Hahaha.. first, wud like to apologize to Ayu snr. for forgetting out 'date' last Thursday. Hey, it's a date for badminton game. What did u think it was, huh??

When out with B to celebrate our 1yr 1mth anniversary. What can I say? There's 3 dates that we celebrate now. For the time being, yes. But no longer after we get married. Haiz... No matter what, I have to say that each time the dates (12th, 16th & 25thof every month) come along, I'll be reminded of whatever that happens on the 12th of August, 2005. When we first met... Yeah, 1st impression matters. He said I look like a NERD!! Chet! Well, you fall in love with a nerd afterall, rite? Hahaha... Anyways, that''s just my Hub... But, what does other peeps tink of me?

My students:

Cikgu, u look like Dwi sey... In case you're wondering who Dwi is, it's a
character from the cinetron "Dia" aired on Suria channel long time ago.
Hahaha...

My colleagues:

Ey, is that you? U look like SK. Ok, peeps SK (Suriani Kasim) is the deejay from
one of the Malay radio channels.

My aunts:

Yu, bile aku tengok muka Masturah Ahmad, nanti aku teringat muka
kau. Without the mole, maybe...

My dearest mommy:

Yelah, muka kau ikot muke aku. Tapi dulu aku kurus... Ok mom, since
when are we talking about size?? We're talking about facial features!

My abang sayang:

U look different from the Ayu that I first met. U look mature now. U look
as if you haf 2 kids already! Ok dear, people grow old!

Ok, sorry sayang. U still look beautiful to me... I prefer you w/o make-up.
Love your original face. Erm, yang... I am original. Nothing about me is
fake, you know! Ok, people buy original goods, I understand. But, original
face?? Hmm...

YeehAAAA!

Hub & I went over to Fatimah Mohsin's after our breakfast at City Square, Johor. Fiance tried on the outfits tat's available. Some of it are out for shows, for majlis.... Tengok gambar pon jadilah.

He seemed happy for.. he can FINALLY wear a tux. :)



So, most probs settled now. Can just wait, sit, goyang kaki till the day is near...

Holiday??!

It's supposed to be a break. Haiz... Didn't even realise that it's soon gonna be over. NOOOOooooooooooooo......!

FTS II is over now... & so is my tarian life (temporary only ok, hubby!). Well, as per hubby, he wants me stop temporarily for a year or two. Claims that he wants to spend time with me after we're married. So, hub, what happens after the 2 years? You dun wanna spend time with me anymore izzit?? Hmmph..!

Anyway, today was the ONLY day I could spend time with hub. I tot it'd be the whole day. But, oh no..!

At around 4,

he : "Dear, I think you gonna hate whatever that I'm about to say."
she : "No lah. What is it?"
he : "I have to do OT tonite. I reali must. Please dun be angry."
she : "WHAT?!!" (before taking a deep breath...)
he : "I have to do OT until this IMF is over."
she : kept silent... (in her heart, begdbskhuyrtfdwe)
she : "Kan you dah promise to spent the whole day today with me. That means sampai malam. Ape ni?! Argh, benci ar!" (continues to negdbnslyfewtbasad)
he : "Sayang, I love you. U lah segala-galanya... (on & on & on.... trying to pacify her)
she : "I tak kire. U break your promise kan. U nampak tu Ah Pek aiskrim. U blanje I aiskrim. The cup one. One for $1 je."

One simple ice cream. Haiz. Looks like life's too simple for hubby. Nak pujuk, belikan aiskrim. Maybe what he says is true lah. Aku ni mcm budak kecik bile merajuk.

His baby girl...

More like baby tua!.....