Beware. This is a super-loooooong entry...
It was scheduled to be on Labour Day but…
My girl decided to pop out earlier. No. Correction. The DOCTOR wanted her to come out earlier. He was worried as my girl wasn’t active and doesn’t respond even when the vibrator thingy was put on my tummy. The ctg reading wasn’t good either.
Earlier on in the morning, Baba hantar my B and I to KKH as it was near his workplace. B mentioned to him that he has the feeling I’ll be admitted that day. Baba cakap that’s not possible lah kan sebab belom ada tanda2 lagi. Belom ada dia kata?? Hmm…
Boy, did he and my Mama got a shock when I called to say I’m admitted already. Hahaha… Mama, baik2 ngantok sebab baru balek keje malam teros segar-bugar. At that point, I was already 1.5cm opened.
OK. So I was admitted but the bed wasn’t ready. I took the chance to go for brunch first. Tanya lah my B. I was shaking. Menggigil-gigil. Rasa takot tu ada tapi perot yang terasa lapar ni perlu diisi jugaklah kan...
At 1.30pm, we were back at the Admission. There we were brought to the ward. Then, the nurse, Kak Siti, came and told me the procedure, etc, etc… Was told that I’ll be sent to the labour ward at 6.00 pm. Haiz.
My parents and my MIL came and then when I was sent to the LW, they went to Tekka to eat. Geram je aku dengar. Dah lah I love nasi goring Mamak…
So off I went to LW. At 6.30pm, was told that they have to observe and insert that thing (I forgot what the name was) to soften the cervix. At 10pm, the opening was still 1.5cm but softened already. And so the Doc said she’ll come back at 2am to check again how I’ve progressed. While waiting, I watched Cartoon Network. Best jugak eh... Ni part blom terasa sakit lagik tau so I can still camwhore with B in that room. Hahaha!
When at 2am, the doc didn’t come, the midwife said she wants me to change my position after a few minutes so as to make the baby move. Did all I can but the baby maseh nak tido! Haiyo… At 3pm gitu, aku start rasa sakit. Apa taknya asik2 kena cocok aje… Contractions have started. The Doc came and check. Only 3 cm at 3.42am. Aku dah tak tahan. Breathe in and out macam mana pun, when perasaan takot and sakit dah combine… jawab sendiri lah ye.
I asked for the epidural. Midwife tak nak bagi tapi the Doc say can give. The ctg was getting better already. Then the Snr Doc came. He gave the green light. Skali, the midwife enter lagik and talk to the Snr Doc. He changed his mind. He said “Give it a few more minutes. We need to see the progress again.”
Alamak, at that point aku dah start bengang. 
The “a few minutes” became a few hours. Every time the midwife came in to check on me, I keep asking for the epidural. Dia suruh aku try the gas, I declined. I know myself. The gas won’t help.
At 6.45am, aku dah start mengamok. “Ok, ok. I’ll call the anesthetic now.” Tapi midwife tu tak pulak kluar2 dari bilik aku. “I want it now!” Barulah dia kluar. After being in pain for nearly 4 hours, barulah aku dapat the amazing epidural. Aku cakap “Thank you” banyak kali pat anesthetic tu. Before midwife tu tukar shift, aku mintak maaf pat dia. Dia cakap “Haiyo. Never mind lah. It’s normal for people to get angry when they are in pain. See, now u’re smiling again.”
And so, at 7.09am, I was 7cm already. Another 3 cm more to go. Doc tu cocok2 macam mana pun, aku ok jek sebab tak rasa sakit pe… Finally at 2pm, I was 9cm already. The nurse came in at 2.33pm to check again and said I was ready to go. Any time I feel macam nak berak, just give a hard push. Dia ajar B macam mana nak help me. Only B and the nurse were there to deliver my princess. After my 3rd push, I blacked out for about a minute. When I heard “Eh, y she so quiet? Ayu, Ayu…” then I opened my eyes. It took me 31 minutes to push before my girl was out. And by that time, 2 doctors and the midwife had came in to give me encouragement.
Part my B nak potong the tali pusat lagik klakar sampaikan orang semua ketawa, termasuklah aku. Ape tidaknya? Nurse tu handed him the instrument and the glove. Wan gabra sampaikan glove tu jatuh2. Nak pakai glove pun leh menggigil. 
Hahaha!
Then I heard her cry. I see her. I can finally look at that pretty face. That feeling, I shall never and can never forget. From then on, bermulalah perjalananku sebagai seorang ibu. Semoga aku dapat menjadi contoh yang baik untuk anakku, Mysha Irsalina.
